Okay... let's get the Julianna paranoia overwith.

Drew is in Colorado fishing with his brother.

I am terrified of something happening to me and Grant being stuck here alone and scared.

If I don't blog again tomorrow night (by midnight) PLEASE try to get in touch with me via phone. If you can't reach me.. send help. (My sister-in-law will be here Friday through Sunday and Drew comes home Monday so it's just a short window of paranoia here).

Yes, I realize I'm paranoid, but I just don't want Grant to be alone and scared and hungry and me be unable to help him.

In huge Grant news... he's sleeping tonight without his pacifier. I cut the tip off... when he saw that his pacifier was broken, he got a big frowny face and cried a bit. Then he asked for another one. I told him they were all broken. We cuddled. We did “rock and rock” (he sits in my lap, I sway and say “rock and rock... rock and rock”). We read stories. I told him I needed to go do the dishes and that I'd come check on him in a bit. He called out “MOMMY” about 1000 times. (Drew & I call that 'pinging”) Finally, after an hour and a half, he's soundly asleep. No pacifier. Breaking Grant's pacifier habit is one of my birthday gifts to Drew. We've both dreaded it, but it needs to be done. So here we are. I'm hoping that by the time Drew comes back the boppie (as we call the pacifier) will be a non-issue.

On the gestational diabetes front... last night was a rough night. Drew was up late working. I was up late because he was leaving and I was sad. I woke up at two (when Drew came to bed for the final time) and was starving. I ate a South Beach bar (because I've been told repeatedly that hunger isn't good, eat something if my stomach is growling, etc). 6AM.. the alarm goes off... because we have to get to the airport right in the heart of rush hour. My blood sugar was totally high (which I found out later was because it wasn't a fasting sugar, so it was normal, just not fasting). And, of course, I puked.

SO – in even more exciting news – Drew's birthday gift to me arrived today. AN IPHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, that's right, I'm part of the people who bought in to apple's Iphone bait. It's the coolest thing I've ever owned. I fiddled with it all afternoon. Mostly I've been setting up my calendar and to-do lists... which is honestly why I wanted it. I feel like I have so much going on... I've wanted something digital to keep track of it instead of my big, bulky calendar. Doesn't hurt that I get all sorts of fun stuff with it. I can't believe that Drew got me that for my birthday! He's so anti-cell phone (he calls them electronic leashes) but he got me one! (hm, does he have me on an electronic leash?)

While Drew's gone I'm free to watch “girl TV.” Tonight it's included “I'm a Celebrity Get Me Out of Here” which was really dumb. Now I'm watching “Hitched or Ditched” and it's amusing.... how wrong is it that I want to see someone get ditched?

So, I'm off to sleep in my paranoia land... sometimes I have to regress into old-anxiety Julianna... just to keep it real.

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Jennifer   |2009-06-03 17:18:26 If you are up, email your number. I swear I will check up on you if you don't blog or comment or email or whatever. I TOTALLY know what you are talking about. Andy is gone tonight and tomorrow night. I usually sleep on the couch. I watch girl tv. I stay up until 3 am. I plan escape routes and attack scenarios, you know, just in case. Right now as I type, I'm imagining a cyber predator picking up on the fact that no man is in the house. Yipes, I'm ridiculous. We are all fine and safe and healthy. The end. Reply | Quote 0   0

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